So I’ve messed up, I fell off, and I gain some weight. 

I got down to 158 pounds a total of 80 pounds lost. Then I completely changed absolutely everything about my life and where it was going and my healthy habits got lost along the way. I’m currently 163 I gained 5 pounds in a matter of weeks and I havent worked out in even longer than that. I feel disgusting and flabby. ALthough i’ve only gain 5 pounds i know I’ve must have lost a lot of muscle tone. I started over last week by trying to eat healthy everyday, I ate healthy about half the time which is an improvement.

I need to be held accountable and I need to do that here. I’m seeking the help, motivation and suppor from the fitblr community because i know there is no way i would have lost 80 pounds without it. Once again i was so close to my goal weight I now have a little less than 40 pounds to go.

I can do this.

I’m sick of starting over.

Weekly Goals:

Week 1:

Prepare all meals for the week

Workout at least 3 times

Week 2:

Prepare all meal for the week

Workout at least 5 times a week

Week 3

Prepare all meals for the week

Workout at least 5 times

Do three strength workouts

Week 4:

Prepare all meals for the week

Workout at least 5 times 

Do three strength workouts

Run once a week

It’s my hope that this will get me back on track. It seem so like so little when i compare it to what I used to do. I sued to do 12+ workouts a week, and eat ABSOLUTELY clean all the time. I can get back there but it will take time and the dedication and motivation i once got from this community. 

I pushed through my leg press plateau yesterday and my ass is paying the price today.


Love it!! 

When I have my arms down at my sides there is space between my arms and my sides! I don’t even remember when this happened last. Ahh!

that at my UGW I will still be considered overweight WTF is up with that?

I am so surprised to have lost 6 pounds this week as I wasn’t able to exercise for half of it. I came down with a bad case of heartbreak that basically immobilized me in sadness but also made me incredibly nauseous which means i couldn’t eat much. I still don’t have much of an appetite and can’t seem to finish a meal. My stomach is just super upset and has been since wednesday. 

Anywho,

SW: 238

GW1: 200

CW: 176 :  really can’t believe im in the 170’s again. 

GW2: 175

GW3: 150

GW4: 125 

So I weighed myself this morning for the first time in two weeks and I managed to drop 6 pounds. woot! This brings me to a grand total of 56 pounds, which also happens to be my half way point, well almost. I only have 57 pounds left to lose. I can’t believe it. When I started i couldn’t even imagine losing 56 pounds. And now I’ve done it and I don’t even feel like its been that long! 

This makes me feel like i could definitely make it to my ultimate goal weight by the end of the year! 

SW: 238

GW1 200  new running shoes

CW 182

GW2 175 New bicycle

GW3 150

UGW 125

So I’ve only been taking levothyroxine for three weeks now, but I have to say I think I’m experiencing some nasty side effects. 

I set an alarm to take it every morning at 6:30, I take it with a full glass of water and then doze of for about half an hour before i get up and get ready for the day. I shouldn’t even call it dozing I really just lay there unable to go back to sleep.

Which is a problem I’ve been having since I’ve started taking it. At first at night I would get in bed and fall asleep as soon as my head hit my pillow which is uncommon for me.  But lately I’ve been feeling utterly exhausted every day by the time 6 pm hits. I’m moody my eye lids feel heavy, I can’t think straight, I feel anxious. Despite my utter exhaustion when i crawl into bed I can’t fall asleep. To the point where I am so tired and frustrated that I cry because I can’t fall asleep. 

Not to mention that I’ve been having the worst joint pains and I cannot think of anything else to attribute it to besides the medication. My ankles hurt so much all the time as well as my knees and my elbows. 

Is there anyone who has taken levothyroxine or is currently taking it that could tell me that these side effects will go away?  

I am so upset with myself right now. I had been doing so well and even when I relaxed my workouts because I was traveling I ate well enough to still lose a steady 2 pounds a week. And this week I tried to get back to it at the gym and I did a total of 7 workouts this weeks, 5 days at the gym and 2 night workouts at home and I’ve gained half a pound!

I’m trying not to be so upset about this because my muscle mass percentage did go up 2 percentage points but I just feel defeated. I began the week telling myself not to put too much pressure on the scale this coming weight in because:

1. I couldn’t be on the treadmill this week (tendon problem)
2. I’ve started taking two different hormone medications
3. Learning I have Hypothyroidism can have mental and emotional and stressful effects so I figured my body would react in some way

Also yesterday was my “cheat” day because I had to got o a bridal shower. Because no one where I live is vegetarian friendly, I ate tons of cheese and carbs :l There were seriously no veggie trays or fruit trays I really couldn’t believe it. Then I went to dinner with my family where I had tortilla soup which was mostly broth so I thought I was safe there and baked sweet potato fries. I though I redeemed myself with dinner, although the soup was very salty. 

I’m probably just over reacting. Regardless I can’t gain weight, I won’t. So it looks like I will be going back to the two workouts a day from now on. Apparently thats what my body responds to.

FML 

So last week I took it easy because of my leg pain. By Friday I was feeling well enough to spend an hour and a half on a stationary bicycle. I was ecstatic to get back to the gym. I still managed to lose 2 pounds last week even though my exercise was really restricted. Yay! Go Me! This bring my total loss to 51 pounds. 

Not previously mentioned is that I’ve been going to the doctors since The beginning of March trying to figure out what is going on with my body because I’ve been having extreme pelvic pains, and irregular periods. I was really afraid that I may have PCOS. I went took tons of test and they were finally able to tell me something yesterday. 

 My hormones are not in balance and so my ovaries are hoarding my eggs. So my Ovaries are becoming impacted with eggs and thats whats causing the pain and irregular periods. To top it off I have a lazy Thyroid so I will be on thyroid hormones for the rest of my life as well as birth control. Which I’m not the happiest about but I feel it could have been much worse.

I also went to the podiatrist yesterday and found that I had strained my tendon, and asked me not to run on it for another week or two. He gave me a shot of what I’m assuming is cortisone, set me up with a leg brace and is working on getting some insert supports for my shoes so that my foot motion is more stabilized to keep from reinjuring my tendons.   

Overall yesterday was very busy and tiring but I did make it to the gym. Looks like i will be spending some time on the bicycle until my tendon is completely ready to run. :l

SW: 238
GW1: 200 —Got new running shoes
CW: 187
GW2: 175 — Going to get a bicycle
GW3: 150 — ?
UGW: 125 — A Healthy Life 

So I started running about 3 weeks ago and everything was going great! and I was gaining endurance and even a little speed. And I thought I truly enjoy my running intervals. 

Then I started to get pains in my lower calf on my right leg. I’ve had these pains before and so I just started to make sure to stretch after and do yoga every night. The pains were gone.  

Then i went to an awesome show this past Saturday and the crowd got rowdy as they generally do. Next thing I know its Sunday and my lower calf on the inside of my right leg down to my ankle is feeling awfully tight. So I decide on Monday to take it easy in the gym. So I did my weight machines and hopped on a bicycle instead of running as I had planned.

Tuesday comes around and I hop back on the treadmill and I can feel the pain and twinge in my ankle with every step but I realize as i walk faster the pain kind of goes away. To my idiotic self this means to run my intervals anyways.

So that is what I did, and I have to say my runs were enjoyable but as soon as I got to a walking section my face was in a constant grimace of pain.  And it still is every time I have to talk more than 5 steps at a time. Don’t even get me started on how much it hurts to walk downstairs. 

So I’m pretty screwed up right now and I have no idea what to do. I’ve been doing stretches, icing it and putting it up when I sleep. Not to mention I’ve not been to the gym since Tuesday. I’ve been really good about trying to stay off of it, but it hurts just as much as it did to begin with.

Any advice? 

I don’t see a lot of advice for the opposite.

There are some days where I am I stray from my normally scheduled meals and I literally eat pretty much nothing all day. I always have breakfast but after I leave the house my mind is elsewhere and I don’t even realize my body needs food until its 8pm and I get back home.

Then I’m famished and eat. I know this can’t be at all healthy because I’m pretty sure this bad habit is what cause my excessive weight gain in the first place!

So my questions are: how do you recover from a day with a small to non existant calorie intake? How long does this effect my metabolism? How do i get my metabolism back into high gear as quickly as possible after one of these days?

I know how to not let these days happen but we’re all human and sometimes it just does! So yea I know…fail to prepare, prepare to fail; la de da. not my question :D